home at last

Hey
it's great to be home for Christmas. Exams are finished. Yahhhhhhhhhhh

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Hi everyone
I can finally post yahhhhhhh
I really don't like the computers here. They are imacs and there are stupid and really anoying. anyway now that I've vented about the computers. School is going good even though I have alot of homework and stuff. The people here are awesome. Anyway I htink I've e-mailed you all so you probably have heard everything.

pics from cortney's party

Cortney's Birthday Party

So I went to Winnepeg yesterday with some friends for Courtney's 18th birthday. I think she was doing pretty good yesterday, I think the party was a good distraction.Please keep praying for her family though.
We went to the Olive Garden for supper. I food was really good but I thnk everyone was full buy the time the actually meal came around. We all ordered the never ending pasta bowl but non of us could finish the fisrt bowl. Thata ok because it was still cheeper than the rest of the meals. after that we went to silver city and we watched the Underclassmen. It was a really good movie and I recomend it to eveyone. It had action in it, commedy and pluse it was clean. IF you guys haven't seen it you should, you would like it. Buy the time we left the city it was like 12:30, so we got home pretty late, but it was lots of fun.

Wild HAir

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Aug29 -Sep4th Work Schedual

Mon Aug 29th OFF
Tues 30th 5-9:30pm
Wed 31st OFF
Thurs Sept 1st 7:30am-2pm
Fri 2nd 2-10pm
Sat 3rd OFF
Sun 4th 5-9pm

Schedule for the rest of the week

Fri Aug 12th 3-11pm
Sun 14th 8am-4pm

Favorite flower

I love daises. They are so pretty hey.

I just love this pic. such a cute picture.

My schedule

Tues Aug 2nd 7-10pm
Wed 3rd 8am-4pm
Thurs 4th 11am-7pm
Sat 6th 11-2 and 5-7
Sun 7th 3-9pm

flip flops

Fun Fun

That was a fun trip I wish we could do it again. I had a dream last night that we were taking a trip in buses like this and going somewhere but I'm not sure where we went. THe dream didn't turn out so great though. Some guy set a young girl on fire and did some other dtupid stuff.

IT'S NEMO

Awwwwwwww

Kids are so cute hey

cute

Fran

New CD

I just got a new Cd the other day and it's really good I think you all should buy it. It's Chris Tomlin.
Here is the lyrics for one of the songs.

INDESCRIBABLE

From the highest of hights
To the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall
To the fragrence of spring
Every creature unique
And the song that it sings
All exclaiming...

(Chorus)
Indescribable, uncontainibale
You placed the stars in the sky
And you know them bye name
you are amazing, God
All powerful, untamable
Awestruck, we fall to our knees
As we humbly proclaim
you are amazing, God

Who has told every lightning bolt
Where it should go?
Or seen heavenly storehouses
Laden with snow
Who imagined the sun
And gives source to its light?
Yet conceals it to bring us the
Coolness of night
Non can fathom ...

(Chorus)

Indescribable, Uncontainable
You placed the stars in in the sky
And you know them by name
You are amazing God
Incomparable, Unchangable
You see the depths of my heart
And you love me the same
You are amazing, God

I think the worship team should play some of these songs

Summer

Wow I don't know what to say now that it is summer time. It seems like there is always something to say about school but I'm not in school anymore. Wow that feels weird. It has been a verry hot summer this year. I can't say I'm complaining. I like it better than last year. I perfer hot to cold anyday.

my FAVORITE tropical flower

Beautiful Palms

Natural Beauty

Beach

Hey isn't this a cool picture.

ME AND TAMI

I thought I would try and figure out how to post pictures. So here is me and Tami.

GRAD

So the ceremony was kind of boring. I got a $250 bursery, I didn't get on honor roll. My GPA is 79.6 how sick is that hey. Oh well. After grad was fun but I was ready to go home and go to sleep by the end. So the next day after I got up I found out that I won a the Keith Kooper scholarship. So I'm pumped about that. I'm not sure how much it is for they are sending me stuff in the mail soon. Anyway I think that is all I have to say. Auntie Sara took lots of pics and I have some as well so if you want to see them just ask me.

WOW

Wow, grad is almost here. My dress is almost done, and the gym looks great. It looks so cool, I think we picked an awesome theme. I'm really excited for grad though. 3 more days. There is still a few more things that need to be done on Monday for the gym but it is almost done and it's going to be cool. I looked to see where I was sitting and I have a pretty good spot, not the best, but definitely not the worst. Carrie's table and Tami's table are right beside ours too so that is cool. It's going to be fun.

Some information for ya guys

So we got our year books on Friday. There good this year. The theme is road trip. There is actually a picture of me other than my school picture and choir picture. Oh and I have my grad dress again and it fits me this time. I just need to get it altered just a little bit.

Today was our church picnic. it was fun got a bit wet. It is very hot today. It is nice. I think I will have a stupid tan for grad though. Oh well. well that's really all I have to say now. I want to get a hold of Courtney but she's not answering her phone, so I hope she does soon.

goodbye

Me and Beth just helped sherry pack all her stuff and put it in her car. It's really sad that she's going back to Ontario, I can sort of understand why she is going back though. I'm really going to miss her though.

Rain Rain Go Away

It's raining again and I wish it would stop. I think it's time we get some sun. I'm sick of it being wet and gross and gloomy.

I only have one class right now. first period and it's really boring. I actually missed math class today. That was actually a fun class. Yah I do wish I had more classes right now. Me and Keerstin and Tara counted the tiles around the school and then we started counting ceiling tiles. Just in certain halls though. Then I finally got courage to walk home in the rain.

yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

YES, I'm done my math provincial exam. I think it was actually easier than the English exam. That means I only have first period class and that is art. For the next three days I have an art exam then I'm done. Friday is big day. And then the next week Wednesday, Thursday, Friday is setup in the gym for grad.

Math Exam

Well I'm going to write my math exam in like an hour. I'll finally be done yah. pray that I'll remember all that I learned and studdied. thanks.

Yah English done forever

I finished my English exam today. Well I didn't actually finish all I would have liked to. I didn't have time to do one of the questions that was worth 5 marks and I didn't finish filling out the context and purpose ect. Which made me sad because those were easy marks. I remember hearing him say we had 5 min left and I was like had done my story. I did finish my story but you can tell when I start to write furiously. Also close to the end I ran out of inc and I didn't have and other pens with me. ( we were supposed to write in blue or black inc) all I had was pink so that's what I wrote in. I hope they will be nice and not doc marks for that. I'm already losing enough marks. I wish I had like 10 or 15 more minutes. That would have been good. At the end when I knew I only had a few min left I could feel myself shaking as I was writing. And after my I was giving stuff to Mr. Hornug and he was helping me get my stuff together ( since I was the last one there and it was the end of break) I saw my had shaking and I could hear my heart beating in my chest just because I had been so tense. I had to take a lot of deep breathes to comb down.

My next exam is my math exam on Monday. I was studying but I had to take a break. Non of it was making sense to me anyway and Heather doesn't know how to do the stuff that I'm doing so she can't help me with it. I'm going to ask Mr. Kroeker tomorrow. I might ask Mandi to help me too. Then I have my art exams tues, wed, thurs. He said he would tell us the questions he would put on the exam so that will be helpful and then I can memorize the answers.

we went to the city today to sort out stuff about my grad dress. Not much is sorted out yet, but they are ordering another medium to see if that will fit me. I might get the dress they have in the store, it has a pull in it but I'll get a discount and it's not too noticeable. So we'll see what happens.

CRUNCH

Wow this is definatly the crunch time of the year. So much to do and no time to do it. This means I've been staying up latter and been really tired and haven't really been able to think much in class. It took all I could do to stay awake in art this morrning. I 'm in the middle of my english exam right now. I have one day lesft which is eqivalent to 1 hour. I don't think I will be able to get everything done in that hour either. I have too much to do. Next monday is also my math exam (3 hours) and I have to correct all my tests and do my portfolio for the provincial exam. Tuesday, Wednesday, and thursday is my art exam which I have to study for yet and I have to finish my autobiography drawing yet. so I better get to work. talk to ya later.

Another dream

So I had another weird dream last night. In my dream these weird people were chasing me and I ended up having to chase a bus so I could get away from them, well they did eventually catch up to me, but I had some sort of Poisson stuff that I threw on the floor in a barn type place and a big hole opened up and there was a huge fire ( it looked like when Frodo is in Mt. Doom and he is standing on the edge) anyway, one of the people that were following us turned into a dragon and started to attack me so I threw some Poisson on him/her and they were thrown into the fire. While they went down though they took some of my friends with them, and I was standing there watching them cry for help (non of them were burning up) but there was nothing I could to I went out side and closed the barn door and started to cry, I had felt that it was my fault but I knew I couldn't get them back. I put a lock on the barn so I would have to watch them suffer anymore and so no one else would fall down. Many years later I discovered that the dragon had gotten out and wanted to take me down with him but he was never able to. Some other person came along in my dream (some guy) and we started to walk down this long road that lead somewhere away from the place where we were and we wanted to warn people not to go there. And that was the end of my dream.

Sad news

I found out yesterday that Brad and Shawna are leaving in July and moving to Calgary. It is actually very sad. I think everyone at youth is sad about that. I hope everything goes good for him at the Church in Calgary though.

My Dream

I had a weird dream last night. It was kind of scary actually. In my dream there was a bunch of us probably a crowd of a hundred or more and it was like a youth event or something and we were watching movies or segments of movies. We started of watching the Simpsons but I think I stood up and said that we shouldn't be watching it or something like that so then we were going to Watch pirates of the Caribbean or Spiderman or something like that. Anyway all of a sudden my phone rang or a phone Rang and I answered it and there was this man on the other end that seemed very friendly asking us where we were exactly and when we were planning to leave and he said that he would like to come a visit us (we were on a ship of some sort in a dungeon sort of room, must have been on the bottom of the ship) anyway I got a bad feeling about him even though he was so friendly so I didn't really tell him anything, my friend Keerstin was now with me too and we both felt we and everyone with us was in danger. So we tried to evacuate the people and get them to a safe place but unfortunately the "friendly" guy showed up like right away and started hauling people off with him on a different ship and he was killing them. Keerstin and I got really scarred and started grabbing the younger children and we started running, hopping he would not find us. By this time we were in gross green water but we could still breath. The grossness seemed to be all around us. Somehow during this time me and keerstin seemed to get separated and only one girl was left with me. The guy or maybe his "boss" or some really evil man anyway seemed to not care about anyone else just me (it was almost like if he got me he got everyone else) so I was started running as fast as I could with this child and I could feel my heart pounding really lots and I think I was actually praying in my sleep because I was so scared. The man did find us however (he looked like darth vader) but didn't do anything to us really he just put us on his ship and we traveled to land and I found myself in front of "my house" and my nighbours ( who were apparently Nat and Candace) I soon found that Beth was with me and we were both scared because we thought that he wanted to get Nat and Candace. I decided that we should all escape before anything happened, so I started gathering people together in secret and we started to run but I then found myself in the green sea and I demon like thing was chasing me and it looked like I was being swallowed up by it. In my head I was thinking something else will happen because it can't end like this and I found myself awake and I was praying really hard out loud that God we save us. And then I realized I was just a dream and for some reason I just started praying for my brother Alex and Houda without even realizing it at first.
I know this was only a dream but it got me to thinking and to realize the spiritual battle we are in every day. Satan will is always searching for ways to stop you from saving other people but God is always there with you. My dream my have stopped where Satan swallows me up but the story isn't over. Right now Satan might have a hold of our world but as Brad says were only in act 2, act 3 is yet to come when Jesus comes to take us with him and be our hero.

Please pray

you know a lot has happened in my life in the past few days. I kept thinking that I had such a horrible life and then I started to realize that I probably have one of the most blessed lives. There are people around the world that are starving and don't have closes to where and I'm here and probably am eating too much. I've hated the way I've been living for a long time but I never did anything about it. I would say that I was trying to change and maybe I would for awhile but hen I would give up because it was to hard and I was scared. Well I hate it that I haven't really done anything but complain. I thought going to bible school I would change and then everything would be ok. But I realize now that it is up to me to do something now. Beth has been talking a lot about complacency a lot lately and she is right. Winkler is a very complacent place and I'm the same way. I wish that I wasn't though and starting today I have decided that I don't want to be that way anymore. God expects more from me. Right now he's probably spewing me from his mouth but I don't want that. I want to be a loving person and be an example to others, but right now I know that is not what I'm doing. I just ask that you guys pray for me so I don't fall back in to the same comfortable lifestyle that I have been in, and that I won't listen to the lie of Satan anymore. God has done so much for me so I really do want to do something for him.

Last Weekend

Ok so it's been a while sine I last posted.
well the zoo was lots of fun. It was the perfect day nice and hot. I saw a white black bear which was really cool. I also saw a Siberian tiger, a snow leopard, a lion, lynx, and a lot of other cool animals. Then after getting back from the zoo we left for fisher bay work weekend. When we got there the van got stuck because the ground was so wet a gooshy which was really gross. Saturday morning we found out we were on breakfast. I made the pancake mix and I got it all over me. It looked like I had been painting it was very funny. Us girls ended up cleaning the dining hall. The dishes were already done for us when we got there. Later in the afternoon we went to go clean the trailer and the caboose. The trailer wash room was absolutely disgusting. The tub and walls were black and dark orange from rust. We used sparkle on it though and we found out it was a white wall and yellow tub. When I was cleaning the shower head I put some pure sparkle on a sponge and started scrubbing it well. It ran down my arm. I ignored it for the first couple of seconds until it started stinging and then I ran to the kitchen and stuck my hole arm in the pale. I also breathed that stuff in an d I tell ya that's not a good idea. Oh and on the way to the trailer Beth decided to run well she was wearing flip flops well needless to say she fell on her but. And it was really funny because I'm usually the one that happens to and the pales she was caring didn't dump so that was kind of cool. Anyway later in the evening then us girls were sitting in our cabin and we decided that we should go to the wash room before it started to rain again well we walked out side and it just started to pour so we ran to the wash room and Beth lost her flip flops on the way. So when we were done and leaving the it started to hail. What fun. So we got outside and Beth just took off and when she got to the steps she fell backwards off of them and her umbrella was flipped inside out. Meanwhile sherry had lost her flip flops and was looking for them so I went back because I had the umbrella and the I lost mine and also could not find them. Then when we got back we thought it would be fun to go run in the rain if we had more close and could go home and b e warm well then we decided to go anyway so we got into shorts and went bare foot and ran to the dining hall to get a snack well half way back Beth said to me Ash don't think about the worms we saw before. Well you know me I screamed and took off running. When were back at the cabin we couldn't stop laughing we were laughing so hard you couldn't here us and our abbs really hurt. We had burping contests too but I defiantly didn't win. It was really funny. The weekend was really awesome. You all should come next year.

Going to Fisher Bay work weekend

Wow it's a nice day today. It's supposed to get up to 27 today. Nice and warm. It's the perfect day for the Zoo which is where I will be going today. And I'll be back just in time to go to Fisher Bay work weekend. It's going to be fun. I hope I can wash the dishes again this year. I like being on dishes duty especially when Beth and Heather are doing it as well. I glad it's so nice this weekend. I remember going to the work weekend and snow still being on the ground. Although there will probably be a ton of mosquitoes swarming everywhere, which isn't very pleasant.

So here is a good song to leave ya with.

BE MAGNIFIED

I have made You too small in my eyes,
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.
But oh Lord I see my wrong.
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song,
oh Lord, be magnified,
oh Lord, be magnified.

Chorus:
Be magnified, oh lord,
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do,
Oh Lord my eyes are on you.
Be magnified, oh Lord, be magnified.

I have leaned on the wisdom of men,
Oh Lord, forgive me;
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and your mercy;
But now oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song.
Oh Lord be magnified
Oh Lord be magnified

Good Song

This is one of my favorite praise and worship songs so enjoy reading the lyrics. It's really good

Lord Most High

From the ends of the earth (echo)
From the depths of the sea (echo)
From the heights of the Heavens (echo)
Your name be praised

From the hearts of the weak (echo)
From the shouts of the strong (echo)
From the lips of all people (echo)
This song be raised Lord

Chorus:
throughout the endless ages
You will be crowned with praises
Lord most high

Exalted in every nation
Sovereign of all creation
Lord most high, be magnified

Wonderful Day

Wow, it's so nice out today so if you haven't been out yet you should for sure go.

Back from Russell

Hey
the trip was good. We stayed in the Russell Inn. It was a nice hotel but it was like a maze. When we first got to the hotel Courtney and Chelsea had the keys to the room and so they left but me and Mandi did not know what room we were in. We thought we were in the 300s for some reason so we went through the maze if our heavy luggage and even knocked on some doors to see which room we were in. We decided to ask Mrs T and it turned out we were in the 200s room 237. The food was really good. Usually on tours we end up eating fast food all week. I'm glad we didn't have to do that. I went swimming twice but it was more like sitting in the hot tub because the guys were playing football in the pool and I didn't wan to get involved in that. I also didn't want to get my hair wet. I tried to get my homework done I only managed to do 2 math questions though. Andreas brought his ps2 so we watched a few movies.

The concerts were ok. I think our first one in Minadosa sucked though. I think our best one was in Russell. The kids were so cute. They copied Evan on the symbols and tambourine. and They copied the choir guys doing weird clapping movements. It was fun though. Russell was also where Andreas got asked buy so grade 8 or 9 girls if they could have a picture with if. We bugged him about it the rest of the time and still are. The next day it looked like he had mascara and foundation on his shirt and didn't know where it came from so we just say it was from those girls.

Going to Russell

I'm leaving @ 8:45 tomorrow to go to Russell. It should be a blast. I'll be back on Thursday @ like 4:00. I get to do laser tag and mini golfing and Swimming my favorite one. We will be singing in schools in Minnedosa, Roblin, Neepawa, and of course Russell. I should go finish packing though and maybe do some home work.

Started Work

So I've started working at the Golf Course Restaurant. It's actually a lot of fun. I've only had 2 shifts there. That's also because I've been sick. Yesterday I had to stay home from school because I was so sick. I hope I didn't miss too much work because Tuesday I'm leaving for choir tour, and I'll be missing a bunch of work then. Tour should be fun though were going to Russell. Not as fun as Banff but I wont have to sleep on a bus this time so that will be good.

comments

Hey everone you should leave comments. I don't even know who reads my blog. so plase leave comments. thanks

Awesome Drama

So I went to see the miracle Worker (the drama my school did) yesterday. It's about Helen Keller. IT was awesome. Carrie was Helen and you actually thought she was blind and Jenessa N did an awesome job of Anne Sullivan. Actually all the actors were good. Andreas played captain Keller and Jenesa F played kate Keller, Mikaela played Helen's aunt yah and those were my friends in the drama. Oh it was so good Carrie must have gotten a good work out from Helen's tantrums.

My mom came out to Winkler today. I haven't seen her in a long time. She arrived in Winnipeg on Thursday and I think she is going back to Alberta either tomorrow or Tuesday.

awesome weekend

So I just got back from our chrurch retreat it was lots of fun. Lots of Swimming and such. Friday I went to virtical adventures for gym credits. It was a blast but I am very sore as a result of it. Oh man friday did I ever get a work out. I don't thik I had ever swet like that before. It was grose. I could feel the swet role down my face some times. not pleasent. however it was lot and lots of fun and I made it to the top of the wall quite a few times, which is amazing for me sice I'm scared of highta and can't really even hold my own whieght. I do recomend all of you to go to virtical Adventures some time though.

no dress

So they didn't get to pick up my dress yesterday. Liane got her dress before they had to go to LaBelle's. I was really hoping they would get it because I will probably will only get it in a couple of weeks now.

My Dress

LaBelle's called yesterday and said my dress was in. That makes me really happy. Auntie Sara went Wedding Dress shopping with Liane today so if they go to LaBelle's then she can pick it up. I hope they go there.

YAhhhhhhhhhh

I gave my notice today and it felt sooooo good. I'm very happy to be done at the Days Inn.

rest of youth retreat

So it's been a week since I came back from the youth retreat and I haven't finished telling you guys about it so now I will. Session three was "I'm so thirsty and weak." Here brad taked about Cora (one of the writers of the Psalms) how he wrote these Psalms because he was thirsty for God (Psalm 84, 42:1,2a) because he worked in the temple but could never go into the holy of holys he was always just on the other side of the curtain. Brad said in Psalm 42:7 Cora comes to God but he dosen't quite get it, he is swimming in God and saying he's so thirsty. Brad siad we are just like Cora we are swimming in God but we want god to fill us. We don't need to feel this way though Jesus makes a promise to us
1)John 7:37-39 - jesus is the source inside of us, within our hollow places
2) John 4:14
3) " then Jesus declared," I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungrey and he who believes in me will never be thirsty..."
So God is a spring within us why would we have to be thirsty for him. On this day I finally let God be that sping within me. I went to the river where he was waiting for me and to tell you the truth it cool because I can honestly say I haven't been thirsty since.
Session four was basicaly a wrap up of whole weekend and at the end then the people that wanted to could take a nail the reprsent what Jesus had done for us . I have that nail in my bible now and it is definatley a good reminder.

went to Winnipeg

So I went to Winnipeg yesterday. I saw my Dad which I hadn't done in a long time and it was good. He told me that he had to do a double take a few times because I looked just like my mom when they got married. apparently even our hair was the same. I thought that was kind of cool. I was also talking about bible school with him he told me that he wanted to set up a program at his church for me so that they can help me go to school he said I would probably have to go there one sunday and give my testimony or tell about what I want to do or stuff like that. ANd I thought about itand I htought that would be really cool I know his church is penticostal and I think it would be a really cool opportunity, I would be sharing my testimony witho thousands of people and even though that thought scares me alot I have a feeling that it is something God wants me to do. I figure if I want to go into missions I'll have to get out of my comfort zone. I'm really worried about this somehow I know God will take me through it though.


I hope my spelling is ok the spell checker isn't doing anything I hope that just means that I don't have any mistakes.

session 2

ok so I guess I didn't get to writing this all down like I had planned to. so I'll do it now. Session two was about " I'm so far away from God..." Brad said this to us " How can you be far away from God if you're a believer?" There is nothing that we can do to get closer to him because he is in us. THe funny thing is tha tI had never realized this before. You would think since it is a simple truth I would have. It's very reasuring to hear that though.
here are some verses that Brad gave us:
-Philip 2:1
-2 cor 13:5
-2 Cor 6:17+19
-Gal 2:20
-eph 3:17
-Jn 14:20
-Jn 15:5

some other stuff that happened on sat at the retrat was :
- Solo time which was awesome. we had 1.5hrs for this and I don't think it was enough. IT was weird though because the first 1/2 hr I thought wa slike an hr and the reat of the time I thought was like15-20 min so that was interesting. I went to swing for like the last hr or so and it was awesome. I imaginded my-self soring like an eagle with God. (it was very windy so it was easy to imagine t his). It was cool though because Friday I had seen an eagle soring above the school ( the fist time I had seen a bald eagle). When I got off the sings I did feel sick but thankfuly I got over that quick.
-girl/guy time was amazing the guys were resteling (how boring) lol. Us girls had like facials, hand massages and we did our nails. it was fun. I also ended up crimping a bunch of peales hair. And farn did mine too. It was awsome.
-during free time some of us girls decied to do make are own version of the Summer whitly skit. it was fun. we did it for the talent show
- the talant show was cool some people have amazing talent like "little" phil I wis I could break dance and I think he even beats Tim in the juggling area. oh and Dan peters and jeff peters halarious. Jeff can do exactly kips voice and Dan can not only do the voice of Naploian but he looks a bit like him too. It was one of the best talent shows I have seen.

ooops

sorry for all the spelling mistakes. Some of them are just typoes. but anyway i can't find the spell checker on here yet so I'm working on it. If you have ideas where the spell checkers is it would be good if you could tell me.

Youth retreat session one

So now I'm tell you about the youth retreat because I'm at home now and the internet finally works. So the them was oasis. We were supposed to relax ( it actually worked) I had lots of fun. There were lots of Napoleon jokes especially at the talent show. Anyway the sessions were awesome. The first night(our first session) Brad talked about how most Christians in Winkler follow "the list" (Read your bible every day, pray many times a day, memorize verses, etc.) and measure them selves up to it. He also said that people who live the list have this curse on them and they will feel it because they will never be able to live up to it. He told us to through out our lists (this does not mean reading your bible and doing all those things are wrong, but we should trust Jesus to show us when we need to do them) and to go to Jesus because Jesus nailed our lists to the cross for us. Jesus wants to release us from our burdens (" his yoke is easy") but following the list is basically a burden. ( I don't know about you but I got a lot stress form "the list"). Brad also said the Jesus was telling us to forget the list and "love me and Love people" Jesus wants your heart and your love and wants to set you free. You need to get rid of the list to do this. By the way we had all been given "the list" and were supposed to check off the ones that were true for us and I got 1 out of 20. I did feel really bad about that but it made me see how much of a burden it put on me. ( I think without going by the list and just listening to God I want to do that stuff more ) Anyway and the end of session brad said he was going to be the image of Jesus and if we wanted he would take the lists that we had and he nailed them to a cross that we had there. During that session I could really feel Jesus taking away my list and I really do feel lighter now. ( I'll write about the other sessions and other parts of the youth retreat later)

change

HEy Guys
I got back from the youth retreat yesterday. It was awesome. I know that there is definatley a change in me now, and I hope that I don't go back to the way I was because I hate that person. Well I can't really write much because I'm on the computers at school and it wont post if it's too long so bye for now.

Story Time

Ok I'm going to try this story thing again. I hope it works. I hope ya like it. it might be alittle cheezy but hey it's a short story what to you expect. I have lots of my own ideas so you don't have to give me any, but please coment. I'm interested to see what you think and what you think will happen next. do't worry I wont change my story because of what you think will happen.
One day I was walking in the forest when suddenly I heard a sound. At first it scared me but as i kept listening I heard that it was a beutiful voice that was singing. I was determind to find out who was singing so beutifuly so I started to seach holding up my candle to the night sky. However I could not see anything. As I was wondering around I soon discoverd that I was getting very tired and it was too late to head back home. So I blew out my candle and laid down on some grass and leaves beside the path.
When I woke up in the morrning I was hoping to start looking for were the singing was coming from again since it was light out now and would be able to see more. However, to my disapointment I could longer hear the beutiful voice, and when I stood up and looked around I was no longer In the forest where I fell asleep But in a peaceful medow. I looked around to see if I could see how I had gotten to this medow. I was not useually a sleep walker and it did not look like the forest was anywhere in sight so i could not possibly have walked there my self. As I looked around I saw nothing but the tall grass and flowers of the medow of miles and miles and the radiant golden sun shining down on it. I let my eyes follow the beutiful golden rays up to the sky. As I looked up I saw a magnificent eagle sorring on the wind. I wanted to reach up and touch it, but I knew that would be impossible. I let my mind wonder on thoughts of the great being which seemed like forever, as if in a trance. Until it sorred out of sight and I could no longer see it .
When my wind came back to reality, I found my self discouraged at the thought that I had no clue where I was and no clue how to get anywhere. I decide that the only thing that I could do was to start walking and hope I could find something or someone to find out where I was so I might possably be able to find my way home. So I started to trudg though the tall grass and flowers. I walked for many hours and realized it was close to lunch time for I was very hungry. I looked around to see if there was anything to eat, but I could see nothing. I closed my eyes in discuragement , but when I opened them again then I saw a beytiful orcherd if all the kinds of fruit you could imagin, and a little streem running through it with water that sparkled. I desided that this would be the perfet place to spend the afternoon. . .................... to be continued
sorry to sopt now but the period is over and I have to go to a meeting now

Frustrated

So I started writing a story before and when I went to post it it didn't work and I lost the story. I think I could write it again and it would be simalur, but I'm not going to do that right now. I dodn't really have that much time.

just listen

So I'm back in school right now. I think I'm sort of happy to be back. I get to see all my friends everyday and that makes me happy.
I was just talking to Fran about what God wants us to do with our lives, well I can say that I don't really know. I think I need to listen to God more and not other people because lately I've been listening to what other poele are telling what to do and I'm getting mixed messages and I have a feeling that God might want me somewhere else. So for now I think I'm going to try listning more to God. You know I wish I had abible here right now. I think I need to get a small one so I can bring it with me places.

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Everyone
Well I'm going to try this blog thing. I hope I rember to post on here.

Well not much in happening right now. I did stay at the Days Inn last night with Tami, Courtney, and Tara. It was a blast.

well see ya guys

Hello!!!!!!!!!

Hey Everyone
I now have a blog. I hope I actualy get around to posting suff on here. Not much has happend to me lately. I did stay at the Days Inn last night with Tami, Courtney, and Tara. that was fun. Um yah .

I almost feel beter now from our hike on Monday. I was very sore yesterday and I think I was walking funny. My muscles don't hurt really anymore but I still have lots of scratches. That was the mosts fun hike I have every been on though. It was tons of fun.

well I think thats all I have to say right now. see ya