Please pray

you know a lot has happened in my life in the past few days. I kept thinking that I had such a horrible life and then I started to realize that I probably have one of the most blessed lives. There are people around the world that are starving and don't have closes to where and I'm here and probably am eating too much. I've hated the way I've been living for a long time but I never did anything about it. I would say that I was trying to change and maybe I would for awhile but hen I would give up because it was to hard and I was scared. Well I hate it that I haven't really done anything but complain. I thought going to bible school I would change and then everything would be ok. But I realize now that it is up to me to do something now. Beth has been talking a lot about complacency a lot lately and she is right. Winkler is a very complacent place and I'm the same way. I wish that I wasn't though and starting today I have decided that I don't want to be that way anymore. God expects more from me. Right now he's probably spewing me from his mouth but I don't want that. I want to be a loving person and be an example to others, but right now I know that is not what I'm doing. I just ask that you guys pray for me so I don't fall back in to the same comfortable lifestyle that I have been in, and that I won't listen to the lie of Satan anymore. God has done so much for me so I really do want to do something for him.